Currently in Denial

The Five Stages of Grief (Kübler-Ross Model)

• Denial: A defense mechanism that buffers the immediate shock of loss, causing feelings of numbness or disbelief.
• Anger: As denial fades, reality sets in, often bringing frustration, resentment, and a search for someone or something to blame.
• Bargaining
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   An attempt to regain control or reverse the loss through "what if" or "if only" thoughts, often negotiating with a higher power or oneself
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Depression: A deep, overwhelming sense of sadness, loss, and loneliness. It is a normal reaction to intense pain, not necessarily a mental illness.
Acceptance: This stage does not mean the loss is "okay" or forgotten, but rather that it is acknowledged and the individual is beginning to move forward with their life. 

I do not think I will ever get to stage 5.

dbee :'(