Find a little bit of joy every day

 

It’s been a rollercoaster of emotions since November last year, and January was just hell. I am pretty much broken and feel I’m in a constant state of panic. However, every day I try to find a little bit of joy to help me through the week. 

A coffee in a cafe, the sun on my face, cooking a delicious lunch, finding that perfect jacket when shopping with my Brother, seeing a friend, messages from my grandchildren, time in the garden, my lovely neighbour Mary popping round, listening to the early morning bird song, etc. 

My American Sister is texting me hugs every day, and knowing my dearest friend, Barbra and her husband Gary, are there for me feels like a joyful safety net of love.

My dear friend Richard in Mauritius messages every day, and I awake to a hello every morning, it is such a joy too. 

Friday was pottery evening with my darling daughter Lisa, and although I really didn’t want to go out, time with her is always precious; she is always a joy to be around and has been my rock.

Recently, I visited some dear friends, Liz and John, who, since David’s passing, often call or message me to check I’m ok, and they invited me over for some coffee and delicious cake! It was good to get out of the house, as I could quite easily hide away forever.

Then I picked up this beautiful artwork gifted to me by another dear friend, Adrian, a very talented artist. This artwork, when I first saw it, made me quite emotional, and I have no idea why. It’s just so beautiful, it evokes so much joy, it could possibly top up my joyful bucket for the month! It now hangs in my bedroom, and what is the hardest part of my day, waking up and David not being there, is now a little more bearable, gazing into the distance and wondering what is behind the hill. I sometimes pretend David is there just waiting for me to catch up.

These are just some of the things that bring me joy every day, and I am so grateful to all my friends and family for helping bring a little joy into my life when I need it most. Today is the anniversary of my sister's passing, 39 years ago, but I still miss her terribly, so for my little bit of joy today, I baked a cake.  I was going to drop off some to my daughter, but I added fruit which she doesn't like, and so I will have to eat it all myself .....unless I get a visitor or two who would then add a little more joyfulness to my day!!

Love and Light 

Dbee x